as we fumbled in the dark reaching for one another's bodies
back in California linear atop the memory foam mattress
charted fertility cycles in the laptop next to the bed
we never saw ourselves here
sitting on the thin carpet smelling of stale smoke
in the basement apartment that you now rent
being brought to tears as we pour over the paperwork
we never could have anticipated
you signing away your rights as a father
you trusting me enough to make the big decisions in his life
the relief in my bones as you told me "I could never take him away from you"
I've never respected you more
although we are awkward and uneasy when in the same vicinity
you are making this final chapter of our story as easy on me as possible
I still worry about you, you still tell me to drive safely
Thank you for setting me free. I now see you were right all along...
we never belonged together.