Friday, March 4, 2011
Iron and Wine | Tree by the river | A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.
I feel like I've aged thirty years in the last week alone. I gain an ounce of faith back and then have it snatched out of my hands before I've even come to terms with it. I knew I'd have to face some of these inevitable new facts about my new life. But I didn't expect them to all be thrown at me at once. Having an empty house while my son is "at his dad's," being introduced to new girlfriends, facing a dying grandfather, gossip, rumors, old lies surfacing. Right now I'm just really struggling with the fact that I played by the rules my entire life. I took all the right steps to ensure that I would get a certain type of outcome. I resisted temptation, sacrificed, and gave of myself until there was nothing left. So how did I end up here?