Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Life Alone

I wore spaghetti straps and floral prints even though
 we are thigh deep in snow (it makes me feel good).  
I bought a book with 1,276 pages. It should keep me busy for a while. 
I took a refreshing fifteen minute walk in the freezing cold.  
I took these photos without your help. 
I listened to certain songs on repeat. 
I saw you for an instant and it felt so strange. 
I stayed busy until 3 a.m. and then slept out of pure exhaustion. 
I held my breath under water in the tub and blocked out the world for a bit.  
I felt free in a really weird way. 

I felt like superwoman until the baby asked "Dada? Dada?" 
And then I'm pretty sure that my heart just stopped working. 


Erin said...

hang in there. sending hugs.

Jillian said...

sweet girl,
you are breaking my heart.

praying for healing.

Becca said...

I'm with Jiliian--you're breaking my heart.So sorry, love.

Kim said...

love you.

Anonymous said...

Sending you my love, warm thoughts and prayers. If I can help please let me know how, love you.

Eve said...

you are strong, you are strong, you are strong. and you are loved, loved, loved.

Anonymous said...


:) It'll be otay. Thank you for posting.